The agony is over

Last week there were speculations that the NLE results will be posted by August 22, 2010. Syempre kinakabahan ako kung papasa ba ako or hindi and I told God na I will accept his decision. Anyway Since August 22 anxious na ko. Ok, fast forward na. PUMASA AKO! YAY! Super happy sa sobrang happy ko nakalimutan ko na hindi pa ko kumakain ng breakfast and lunch!! I super thank God tlaga, I knew it hindi niya kami papabayaan. I also thanks my family, my boyfriend, my friends, my beloved group twoot, classmates, schoolmates, my CIs and professors and RCAP. Thanks for believing and helping me to boost my self esteem! Lalo lalong na ung mga self booster friends ko. Thanks!

Thank you Lord, God, for always being there and answering my prayers :D Natutuwa ako sa mga answers niyo po nung August 22 and after that I knew papasa ako :)

Thank you Mama Mary, for always guiding me ever since I've became your loyal daughter. Thank you so much

To Sir Fur and Mam Tingcungco, alam ko po na pinagpray and nag ask kayo ng petition kay God to help us pass the board exam. Thank you so much po, please always guide our way to become a better nurses. Thank you po.

The real purpose

Well, I totally forgot my real purpose of buying my little corvette. Beside from being a fashion photographer, I really wanted to be a Photojournalist or a Freelancer news blogger. I remember daydreaming taking those photos from rallies, important events, etc. Well good luck to me! I hope I can achieve this little dream of mine.

AFP VS. PNP

Sorry di talaga ako matahimik sa issue na to.

Marami nagrereklamo about sa ginawa ng Manila SWAT Team dun sa hostage dra,ma pero sana marealize niyo kung gaano kahirap ung ginagawa nila lalo na ung pagsacrifice nila ng life para maligtas ang mga HK nationals.

WHY AFP VS. PNP? Uminit ulo ko that night dahil isang diskusyon ng isang schoolmate ng anak daw kuno ng isang taga AFP. Nagagalit siya sa PNP dahil ayaw pa nila ipasok ang AFP or sort of ganun. Bakit nga ba walang AFP kasi it's beyond their duty, wala job description nila un. Isa pa sa lalo nagpainit ng ulo ko is panay compare niya sa PNP and AFP. Ok fine, magaling na ang daddy mo pero isipin mo iba ang sundalo sa pulis. Green ang uniform nila, blue ang sa pulis. Parang MD and RN lang yan and Pilot and Stewards. Gets mo? Makaiba sila?? Meron something sa PNP na wala sila meron din sa AFP na meron sila na wala sa PNP. Sana maliwanagan na ang utak mo ok? Iba ang training PNP and AFP and walang mas magaling at mas marunong sa dalawa, pantay pantay lang sila.

Yun lang. Good night!

Naglalabas lang ng sama ng loob

Ok fine. First of all sorry kung nasaktan ka sa tweet ko nag opinion lang ako at hindi ko naman alam na magiging big deal sayo un. Ayan binura ko na ung tweet na un para sayo. And then second, OO NA IKAW NA MAGANDA!! WALA NAMAN AKO SINABING MAGANDA AKO? AT ALAM KO NAMAN NA HINDI AKO KAGANDAHAN HINDI MO NA KAILANGANG IPAGSABI. OO IKAW NA, IKAW NA ANG PINAKAMAGANDA AT PINAKASEXY. Yun lang. Good night!

Fur Serquinia

Sir Fur was one of the best ever CI RTRMS-MMC (currently known as MMC-CN) ever had. It was a bit depressing about the news that he died last August 22, 2010 due to Pleural Effusion s/t Pneumonia.

Sir Fur started as a CI when we were on our 2nd year of college. He didn't became our CI but I had heard lots of negative feedbacks about him and yes I did hated him because of those feedbacks. At my 3rd year Summer Class, He became one of the CIs in our RLE and I remember that I told him in one of the activities that there's something wrong with group 3's presentation and then he said "Sige tumayo ka! Isigaw mo!" and ofcourse I was too embarrassed to shout it out so Sir decided that Shem should do the honor haha. At the first day of 3rd year we were told that Sir Fur would be our Clinical Instructor for our fourth rotation in Pediatrics 6th floor at MMC. At the first day he told us "You should address me as Sir Serquinia not Sir Fur kasi hindi ako Surfer." I remember that it was so hard adjusting are duties because Sir Fur has also classes for Masterals. As a CI he taught me to love nursing, he taught me to appreciate the ADPIE process, he taught me how important doing the assessment and how every single cues are so important for Nursing Care and he also taught me the easiest way to measure the IV line and the use of gum label. He also love watching cartoons, He memorize every songs of any cartoons such Spongebob Squarepants, Dora the Explorer, etc even the Tagalog dubbed songs of these cartoons. And yeah I almost forgot that I love his voice and I love how he sings, he has an angelic voice. I remember this day as we call it the Pokerface days, we presented our case study thru Lady Gaga's Pokerface and he was so proud of us and he even told the lower years about us. He's one of the Group Twoot's favorite so I thanked God for letting us have Sir Fur. Please take care of him Lord, God. To Sir Fur, you will always be in our hearts, thank you.

Personality Disorder Rating.

Disorder | Rating

Paranoid: Moderate

Schizoid: Moderate

Schizotypal: High

Antisocial: High

Borderline: Very High

Histrionic: High

Narcissistic: High

Avoidant: High

Dependent: High

Obsessive-Compulsive: High

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

Confession of a Fro-Yo Addict

When I was a kid I love eating Ice cream, I'll do anything to eat ice cream. I never got tired of eating those Ice cream but when I turned 16 years old I was a bit conscious of my weight and tried to eat Yogurt (because they said that helps you to lose weight) and I got addicted to Yogurt.

I started eating frozen Yogurt just last May 2010 were me and Majo ate at Red Mango, it does taste like Yogurt (the sour taste). At around June, me and Jezza tried White Hat and yes, we got addicted to it and we've been returning to White Hat almost everyday! I tried California Berry for FroYo's sake and it does taste like Red Mango with the sour taste of yogurt. Just weeks ago we ate at Tutti Frutti and it was also delicious but it didn't replaced White Hat as my number 1. And just yesterday, I ate at Qoola with Laiza and I fell in love with it! And it has replaced White Hat as my number 1 favorite Frozen Yogurt although it's a bit expensive. And now, I'm craving for fro-yo!

My Fro-yo toplist:

1. Qoola
2. White Hat
3. Tutti Frutti
4. Red Mango
5. California Berry

My Pending List of Fro-yo:
*I love berries
*green apple
*banapple
*ghutz
*golden spoon
*yoh-gurt froz
*lulu belle

Getting Depress errr

You know what hurts? It's when someone you special yesterday, but made you feel that you were the most stupid person today.

after reading this quote those memories were like a slideshow showing me how horrible he was and I don't know why I am feeling this way? Is it because I can't stand the fact that he made me one of his experimental girls to see who can easily fell inlove with him? Tae, magtatagalog na lang ako haha Anyway, back to the topic. Di ko lam bakit nagbabalik, I did forgive him na, ayaw ko na magalit ulit sa kanya, sinupress ko na lahat ng galit, lahat ng badtrip ko. I knew it if something na makakatrigger babalik na naman ang galit ko sa kanya I know suppression is really a bad idea pero yun lang talaga ung paraan para maging ok kami. Shit talaga! Bwiset! Bakit ba ko nagalit sa kanya? Sabi ko nga kanina ginawa niya kong experiment! in short PANAKIP BUTAS! Kasalanan ko din kasi nagtake advantage ako, akala ko kaya siya ganun kabait kasi he's being a gentleman pero hindi may purpose I mean may ginagawa siyang experiment and gladly naeliminate na ko sa experiment niya. Although he had found the girl who passed his experiment, that's why for how many months na hindi ko siya sinusupport sa balak niya to kasi friend ko ung girl and I don't believe him talaga, I don't believe that he love that girl, I love the girl ayaw ko masaktan siya so I dunno. Di ko lam, I'm like crying here and can feel the emotion I felt last two months ago. It was anger, depression, guilt and hatred! So here, I'am telling you now na di na ko masyado magiging close sa kanya di kagaya ng dati but I need to forgive him na. That's what my daddy and my brothers told me, to forgive people. Pero masakit talaga ung ginawa niya sa aken and parang pinamumukha niya lang na something na Second hand or Second option ka lang. ISANG PANAKIP BUTAS. Lalo niya pinababa ang self esteem ko. Isa ka pa naman sa pinakaclose na guy sa akin and then sisirain mo lang yung trust ko sayo I don't know kung kailangan pa ba ako maniwala sayo. From now on, I won't ask any favor from you kasi nakakahiya baka kung anu lang isipin mo ulit. Thanks anyway! And like the quote said I'M SO STUPID to believe to that goodness in you. I'll make some distraction to forget this depression, i should study na.

Friday the 13th

Yesterday was friday the 13th which means it's an unlucky day and for me it was 50-50 which means I experienced bad and good lucks. Good luck because our planned photoshoot was done and it didn't rain!! YAY! And bad luck because my Lola Linda died and I really don't know what's the cause. And also my Lola has forgotten who I am like she's manifesting signs and symptoms of Alzheimer's Disease, I hope she'll be fine.

Anyway, I want to share to you a teaser for my next portfolio which will be posted on my Facebook, DeviantArt and Multiply accounts.

The Ambivert One

I just took a personality test (the one answers if you are introvert or extrovert) and guess what, I am an AMBIVERT, which means I have some trait of an extrovert and introvert.

We all have a little extrovert and introvert in us. We might, for example, act goofy when hanging out with friends, but barely make a peep during office meetings. By gaining a better understanding as to where we lie on the extroversion/introversion continuum, we can develop not only a deeper understanding of ourselves, but also of those

you appear to be the type of person who enjoys socializing with both large and smaller, more intimate groups of people. You don't mind being around big crowds, but that doesn't mean you'll want to crash every party you're invited to. Having an active social life and extending your network of friends is relatively important to you, but it isn't the most crucial thing. You've managed to strike a great balance between actively involving yourself in your larger social network, and spending some quality time with a few intimate friends. Although you may not always be the conversation-starter or the "life of the party", you are generally a very outgoing individual, whether among friends or people you are less familiar with.
-from Queendom

Be Contented

I'm crying my heart out due to emotional stress and low self esteem. Need to boost my self esteem and be happy for who I am and for what I am. Be contented for what you have and what God gave you. Sorry for being emotional, it's GLEEs fault!!

Being contented was one of the things I've learn in Louisa May Alcott's Little Women so here I am trying and doing my best to be contented with the things I have and for the look that God gave to me. Although sometimes we think that this is not enough and getting envious to others is really a dangerous and deadly sin. I should tell myself that I'am unique and truly a gift, a wonderful gift given by the Almighty Father.

Dilemma

I'm planning to pack up and transfer to tumblr..? What do you think guys?